I've been trying to distract myself from thinking lately. I know to some, that may sound silly, but with my recently plague of insomnia, light-thinking has been allowing me to have restful nights. While I'm awake, I do think about the job situation, because that, I really can't control. I applied for fourteen jobs today and have a meeting with a placement agency tomorrow.
I'm going camping with BeBe and the girls this weekend. I asked Toot to borrow some camping equipment. He told me that I could borrow whatever I needed and asked me to call off work to hang with him and get the items. Well that day came and I couldn't take off. That fool Toot had the nerve to be mad and when I asked him about still using some of his camping gear, he said no. The fact that he had the nerve to tell me no when I've driven out of my way, through a thunderstorm to bring him money that he needed to borrow, pissed me off.
I went to a comedy show Saturday evening. The headliner was Lavelle Crawford and the opening act was named Spike Jackson. Let me tell you all, between those two men, I laughed until I cried. The laughter I got that night was just what the doctor ordered. When I'm sad, often times, I watch or listen to something funny to lift my spirits.
Last night I had a dream about Teddy. I think that the dream was because I prayed for him before I went to bed. Despite the way things ended between him and me, I still want only the best for him. I actually woke myself up from a dream for once. The dream had just started and in it my phone rang and I reached for it and saw that it was Teddy calling. I remembered thinking, this must be a dream, he's too proud to call me and just like that, I woke myself up.
What other ramblings???? I'm not sure if I told you guys but my sister officially moved to Arizona. I'm so proud of her and I am glad that she has followed her dream. One of my brothers teased that I turned her into a traitor since she left our hometown, my thing is, if being a traitor means doing what your heart desires, I'll be a traitor every time.
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Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The Haps
As life goes, there is always so much going on, with so little free time. One of my brother's finally came down to visit and we had a great visit. He bought me a new bag, 32-inch tv and a really nice watch. They were all early birthday presents.
Teddy hit it off great with my brother, as I thought he would. They were even both rapping to songs in the car. I smiled as two of my favorite guys got along and shared stories of their pasts.
School has been a lot more demanding lately. I meet with my classmates up to three times a week but the best part is I seem to be doing apparently well in both my Stats and Accounting classes.
Work has been alright for the most part. There are layoffs among us and I know of two people who are getting fired tomorrow but obviously I'm not the one to tell them. I felt so bad because one person was telling me her life woes, including being the only employed one in her family.
My sister has been down twice in a three week span, we even went to New Orleans. It was my first time there and we had a blast. We both definitely plan to go back somtime this year.
I interviewed for an internal position, but I didn't get it. Oddly enough, I wasn't disappointed, the manager of the position actually gave me the creeps, so no love lost there.
Hmmmm...what else....just kidding. I saved the best for last......
TEDDY AND I ARE GETTING MARRIED!!!
We're getting married this fall and I couldn't be more excited and stressed! I have been planning like a maniac. There is one thing that has been getting on my nerves when I tell people my news, their inquiry as to whether or not I'm pregnant. Can't a black woman get married without being pregnant?! Ugh!
Well I'm off to catch up on what's been going on with you all.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
The Haps
Hey Everyone!! I can't believe I've been away so long, I see how Mia can take such long breaks! Thanks to those of you who wondered about how I've been.
Let's get going, I finished my first semester of graduate school. I received an A- in my Finance Class and an A in my Communications course. There is a chick in my group that I'm stuck working with for an entire year, I've been doing a lot of praying, we've gotten into it three times already and the word bitch is on the tip of my tongue.
I finally moved from the projects into the burbs. Let me just tell you, it is like living in an entirely different world, the pic attached is the new place. I've decided I'm going to start posting more pics with my blog, to give you all more of a visual.
Work has been pleasingly quiet lately. I am actually starting back up my job search though before anything else pops up with the coworkers. I haven't brought lunch to work in a while since the incidents with my coworker mistaking my items for hers.
Unfortunately, not bringing my lunch means that I've been eating out a lot, not to mention drinking, see that pic attached too and have gained a good twenty-five pounds since this time last year. I know people are always making resolutions to lose weight in the new year but it is definitely a must for me, I'm busting out of my clothes.
I've made a great friend that I met at work and she and I live in the same neighborhood now. I really missed all my friends since I made the 3K mile move and I'm glad to have found a true friend here. She and I hang out a lot and have tons in common. When Teddy and I had some issues, she was just the true definition of a "girlfriend." Since she has lived here all her life, she has a ton of friends and I've gotten to meet quite a few of them. They remind me of my friends back home and they have invited me to several events that they've each had, it finally started to feel like I lived here and wasn't just visiting.
Things with Teddy are now better than they have ever been. Like a lot of couples, we went through a period where we weren't seeing eye to eye. Thankfully we worked everything out and are now planning for the future. He has really grown a lot since we first started dating and is continuing to grow into the man that I know he can be.
My sister is still planning to move down here to join me, not in my apartment though (thank God!) She graduated with her Masters in Education a couple of weeks ago and is now just waiting for a job. She and I have been on pretty good terms these last few months. We have had our normal disagreements but they usually only last a day or so and we're back to living life as if nothing happened. After deciding that she was tried of yo-yo dieting, she had gastric bypass surgery and is down about 60lbs. I know that outside appearance has nothing to do with how a person feels but she seems to have a bit more confidence lately.
I went home for a quick weekend a few months back, I had gotten a little homesick. My cousin had a bbq at her house and after a few hours and a liquor concotion, appropriately named, "Jungle Juice," things went horribly wrong. There were punches and smacks thrown and the police shut down the party. There is one cousin that none of us are really speaking with because she defended her boyfriend to the cops. We made ammends a couple of months ago, but things still feel weird. I'm hoping to get things back on track with all of us, since no one is really speaking to her.
My trip home for Christmas started off really well. The flight left on time, I met a nice man who chatted about his wife, job and dog. The ride had no turbulence and we even arrived on time. But as always, there has to be some type of drama. On our way back from an evening of hanging out, my sister, cousins and I were in an accident. There was a man waving cars down on the freeway and as we slowed down, we slid on black ice, hit his truck and ended up facing oncoming traffic. At that point, we decided to get out of the car and make it as quickly as we can to the embankment. It was super cold, a whopping 15 degrees and snowing. The good part is none of us was seriously injured, I'll add pics from that night too.
That is really all that's been happening this way. I am getting ready to straighten up a bit and enjoy the rest of my vacation from work. Teddy has plans for us tomorrow night and I'm looking forward to the year ahead. I still cannot believe that this year has gone by so fast. I'm going to be catching up on all your blogs over the next few days.
The final pic is of my baby!! See you in the new year!
*Edited to add- The pics are all out of order but pretty easy to figure out!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
My Heart Stopped
The other day I work I got a call from my sister. I picked up the phone with a high-pitched hello, acting silly.
All I heard from her end was crying. My heart stopped beating and I yelled at her, asking what was wrong. In between sobs, she told me that some guys had kicked in the front door while she was in the shower.
Panic set in and I wondered if she was alright. Had my parents been injured? I needed to know everything. It was four in the afternoon and someone had the audacity to just kick in the door to my parent's home, after them being there only two short months, I was mad as hell.
The police arrived within a few minutes so she said she would call me back. The entire time I waited to hear from her, my stomach was in knots.
She finally called me back and gave me the details about what happened. She saw the crooks and ran after them, but she recently had surgery so she couldn't catch up as fast had she not been recovering.
The jerks stole her $2,000 M-book and even took the time to rip the cord from the wall. Her feelings were hurt about her computer and the fact that all her papers and personal information was on there.
She is in better spirits now, thanking God that she wasn't harmed and she only lost a material possession. My parents felt horrible because they had discussed getting an alarm but hadn't gotten around to it yet. I'm just thankfil that she's okay.
All I heard from her end was crying. My heart stopped beating and I yelled at her, asking what was wrong. In between sobs, she told me that some guys had kicked in the front door while she was in the shower.
Panic set in and I wondered if she was alright. Had my parents been injured? I needed to know everything. It was four in the afternoon and someone had the audacity to just kick in the door to my parent's home, after them being there only two short months, I was mad as hell.
The police arrived within a few minutes so she said she would call me back. The entire time I waited to hear from her, my stomach was in knots.
She finally called me back and gave me the details about what happened. She saw the crooks and ran after them, but she recently had surgery so she couldn't catch up as fast had she not been recovering.
The jerks stole her $2,000 M-book and even took the time to rip the cord from the wall. Her feelings were hurt about her computer and the fact that all her papers and personal information was on there.
She is in better spirits now, thanking God that she wasn't harmed and she only lost a material possession. My parents felt horrible because they had discussed getting an alarm but hadn't gotten around to it yet. I'm just thankfil that she's okay.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Pacing Myself
As life goes, it seems that things are all falling into place at once. In a month, I'll be starting classes and in about two months, I will finally be moving.
My sister is all over the place with her ideas. One minute, she wants to move down in January, the next, it's June. One second, she wants she and I to be roomies, the next, she'd like to get a third bedroom for our younger brother.
Then the other day she "so-called" lectured me about making the decision that is best for me, not for Teddy, her or my brother. I kind of sat there dumbfounded because she was the one putting the most pressure on me as far as living arrangements. She then went so far as to say that I'm only thinking about one area in particular because it's close to Teddy. I let her know that I liked the area I'm looking in before I even met Teddy. In fact, Toot and I went looking in that neighborhood back before I even met Teddy.
On the school front, I'm really excited that it will be starting school. I will need to come up with some type of schedule so that I make adequate time to study. When I think about the possibilities that an advanced degree could bring me, the future looks a lot brighter.
I've also been trying to watch what I eat, I'd love to drop some weight and fit comforably in my clothes again. I've joined a challenge with S23 that motivates me, even when I don't always make the best choices, I keep at it. Life is slowly, but surely beginning to move for me.
My sister is all over the place with her ideas. One minute, she wants to move down in January, the next, it's June. One second, she wants she and I to be roomies, the next, she'd like to get a third bedroom for our younger brother.
Then the other day she "so-called" lectured me about making the decision that is best for me, not for Teddy, her or my brother. I kind of sat there dumbfounded because she was the one putting the most pressure on me as far as living arrangements. She then went so far as to say that I'm only thinking about one area in particular because it's close to Teddy. I let her know that I liked the area I'm looking in before I even met Teddy. In fact, Toot and I went looking in that neighborhood back before I even met Teddy.
On the school front, I'm really excited that it will be starting school. I will need to come up with some type of schedule so that I make adequate time to study. When I think about the possibilities that an advanced degree could bring me, the future looks a lot brighter.
I've also been trying to watch what I eat, I'd love to drop some weight and fit comforably in my clothes again. I've joined a challenge with S23 that motivates me, even when I don't always make the best choices, I keep at it. Life is slowly, but surely beginning to move for me.
Monday, August 3, 2009
The Weekend
My weekend was cool for the most part. I stayed in Friday night while my cousins went to a bar for old school night, I just wasn't feeling it. Saturday morning my neices came over at 7:30am and they stayed til around five. We had a good time being silly with one another. I don't see them as much as I used to and I really missed them.
Saturday night I wasn't much up for partying either, in fact, I only left the house to let my dad's dog outside. My brother works at a restaurant so thanks to him, I had dinner without having to go anywhere.
Sunday I got up and went to 8:00 service at church. I enjoyed the message and was glad that I went. My little brother's car apparently broke Saturday some time and it was in front of the house. Sunday when I was headed out the door I noticed its now in the driveway so I wake him up asking him to move it. It was at this time that he informs me that its broken. My thing is, it was broken when it was on the street, why not leave it there or if you're going to attempt to put it in the backyard, get it all the way back there. The car being stalled where it is requires me to drive partially on my neighbor's grass. It has me very irritated that I have to do this. At some point today while I'm here at work, I am going to tell his tail to have that car out of the driveway by the time I get home.
After church I ran a couple errands and went home to clip some coupons. Hey, I'm trying to move, I need all the savings I can get. One of my errands included picking up a mini cake for my mom. There was no special reason behind the cake, other than its her favorite and just a little love token.
I was supposed to see my friend's baby and spend time with her but at around 6ish she texted asking if we could reschedule, which was fine by me. During the course of the day my sister had harassed me about going to the movies. We had just went two weeks ago and I wanted to spend the night in but she tried guilting me into it because she doesn't have any friends, so I decided to go ahead and go.
The theater that she wanted to sells liquor and this was her main focus for wanting to go there. She was surprised when I informed her I didn't want a Daiquirita with her. She offered to buy it for me but the money wasn't the issue. I have been trying to watch what I eat and there are so many cals in those frozen drinks, it makes no sense.
We saw the H.angover. It was funny and the liquor intensified my sister's sense of humor. I had to tell her to quiet down a couple of times. Then this teeny-bopper movie usher came over and asked her to put her phone away. Well she started cussing and fussing about how she's an adult and how she'll cuss him out and he won't do anything about it. I covered my face slightly and resumed watching the movie.
I gave her the cake to give to my mom since they now live in the same apt complex. After that I went home and attempted to watch B.ridezillas but to no avail, about fifteen minutes into the show, my DVR started going haywire. I laid down and got a phone call from this new guy I've been talking to a lot. I will have to give details on him later.
Hope you all had a nice weekend.
Saturday night I wasn't much up for partying either, in fact, I only left the house to let my dad's dog outside. My brother works at a restaurant so thanks to him, I had dinner without having to go anywhere.
Sunday I got up and went to 8:00 service at church. I enjoyed the message and was glad that I went. My little brother's car apparently broke Saturday some time and it was in front of the house. Sunday when I was headed out the door I noticed its now in the driveway so I wake him up asking him to move it. It was at this time that he informs me that its broken. My thing is, it was broken when it was on the street, why not leave it there or if you're going to attempt to put it in the backyard, get it all the way back there. The car being stalled where it is requires me to drive partially on my neighbor's grass. It has me very irritated that I have to do this. At some point today while I'm here at work, I am going to tell his tail to have that car out of the driveway by the time I get home.
After church I ran a couple errands and went home to clip some coupons. Hey, I'm trying to move, I need all the savings I can get. One of my errands included picking up a mini cake for my mom. There was no special reason behind the cake, other than its her favorite and just a little love token.
I was supposed to see my friend's baby and spend time with her but at around 6ish she texted asking if we could reschedule, which was fine by me. During the course of the day my sister had harassed me about going to the movies. We had just went two weeks ago and I wanted to spend the night in but she tried guilting me into it because she doesn't have any friends, so I decided to go ahead and go.
The theater that she wanted to sells liquor and this was her main focus for wanting to go there. She was surprised when I informed her I didn't want a Daiquirita with her. She offered to buy it for me but the money wasn't the issue. I have been trying to watch what I eat and there are so many cals in those frozen drinks, it makes no sense.
We saw the H.angover. It was funny and the liquor intensified my sister's sense of humor. I had to tell her to quiet down a couple of times. Then this teeny-bopper movie usher came over and asked her to put her phone away. Well she started cussing and fussing about how she's an adult and how she'll cuss him out and he won't do anything about it. I covered my face slightly and resumed watching the movie.
I gave her the cake to give to my mom since they now live in the same apt complex. After that I went home and attempted to watch B.ridezillas but to no avail, about fifteen minutes into the show, my DVR started going haywire. I laid down and got a phone call from this new guy I've been talking to a lot. I will have to give details on him later.
Hope you all had a nice weekend.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Peace and Quiet
I finally get a day of solitude and it's amazing. I ended up helping my parents and sister move over the weekend and it was very tiring. My parents left their dog here so I have been taking care of him the past couple of days. He's a good dog but so big and affectionate. A lot of times I find myself pushing him off of me.
A couple of weeks ago I interviewed for a job but I didn't get it. I was a bit disappointed but I know that at some point I will get the job that I'm meant to have. I'm just glad I didn't tell too many people because the few people that did know hounded me about it. I know that they were being caring asking about it but its like if I really heard back and they offered me the job, don't you think I would have shared that?
Of course I have a story about my sister. Moving day, she went to work, leaving us to handle her move. I was upset that my parents would even allow her to get over on them like that but whatever. The night before they moved, she discovered a nest of gnats in her room in her dog's food bowl. I was totally disgusted. Of course she opened the door to her room to air it out which meant that she loosed them into the rest of the house. By Friday morning they had taken over the house and I had to eat outside in the car because they kept trying to land in my breakfast.
The final insult came yesterday when she came over to gather some of her belongings and take her dog to her new apartment. We had ordered Chinese food and brought it back to the house. We were downstairs getting ready to eat and she says I don't want to eat here, there are too many gnats. If I could have I swear I would have choked her just til she was about to pass out. That is how furious I was. Then she was like, "do you get it? I'm saying I don't want to eat here and I'm the reason for the gnats."
She then asked me if we could go up and eat in my room. I decided that since she wanted to piss me off I would do the same. I told her that she couldn't eat in my room because she will spill and leave a mess and not clean up because she never does. She was so offended and I was glad because we both know its true. I would go take a picture of that hideous room she left but I don't want to risk any of her bugs breaking free. I am going to use a bug fogger tomorrow while I'm at work and hopefully that will take care of this big problem she has created.
A couple of weeks ago I interviewed for a job but I didn't get it. I was a bit disappointed but I know that at some point I will get the job that I'm meant to have. I'm just glad I didn't tell too many people because the few people that did know hounded me about it. I know that they were being caring asking about it but its like if I really heard back and they offered me the job, don't you think I would have shared that?
Of course I have a story about my sister. Moving day, she went to work, leaving us to handle her move. I was upset that my parents would even allow her to get over on them like that but whatever. The night before they moved, she discovered a nest of gnats in her room in her dog's food bowl. I was totally disgusted. Of course she opened the door to her room to air it out which meant that she loosed them into the rest of the house. By Friday morning they had taken over the house and I had to eat outside in the car because they kept trying to land in my breakfast.
The final insult came yesterday when she came over to gather some of her belongings and take her dog to her new apartment. We had ordered Chinese food and brought it back to the house. We were downstairs getting ready to eat and she says I don't want to eat here, there are too many gnats. If I could have I swear I would have choked her just til she was about to pass out. That is how furious I was. Then she was like, "do you get it? I'm saying I don't want to eat here and I'm the reason for the gnats."
She then asked me if we could go up and eat in my room. I decided that since she wanted to piss me off I would do the same. I told her that she couldn't eat in my room because she will spill and leave a mess and not clean up because she never does. She was so offended and I was glad because we both know its true. I would go take a picture of that hideous room she left but I don't want to risk any of her bugs breaking free. I am going to use a bug fogger tomorrow while I'm at work and hopefully that will take care of this big problem she has created.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Nerves of Steel
I don't know where people get their nerves from, I really don't. Last night I went to bed around 11pm. I had spent two hours cleaning my "new" bathroom at my parents and the bleach had me light-headed. After watching a bit of I'm A Celebrity...I played Wii for a bit, took a shower and hopped in bed.
At first I thought I was delusional but then reality snapped into play when I realized that the noise I heard was my cell phone ringing. Couldn't have been the wrong number because my voice mail chime went off soon after. Unsure of the time, I rationalized that since I was good and sleep it had to be late but was too lazy to see who was calling or what time it was.
I forgot to mention that I talked to Mover last night. He asked when he was going to see me and I asked when he was off. He said that he was off today and I told him we'd make plans to meet up after I got off work.
Okay, now back to the story at hand. So this morning when I woke up I looked at my Caller ID to see who had called. It was Mover....I still haven't even checked the voice mail and unless he was calling to tell me he had just been involved in a fatal car accident or his house was on fire, there was no justification for calling me at 3AM!
Now I've pretty much decided that not only will I not see him today but I think I'm done talking to him. Maybe I'm being harsh but I just thought that was very rude.
The next person with nerves is, drumroll please....my sister. How'd you guess? Yes, this morning she had the nerve to get mad at me because I didn't wake her up for work this morning. My mom usually wakes her up and she is out of town. You're a grown woman, wake yourself up!! I told her to just go ahead and get dressed and go late. She explained to me that calling in sick was better at her job than coming in late, I am so working at the wrong place. Then she went on to further say that she didn't have any clean clothes anyway, so she'd just take the day off. How is it that you knew you had to go to work and have no clean clothes?
I guess there are some situations and people that I am not meant to understand.
At first I thought I was delusional but then reality snapped into play when I realized that the noise I heard was my cell phone ringing. Couldn't have been the wrong number because my voice mail chime went off soon after. Unsure of the time, I rationalized that since I was good and sleep it had to be late but was too lazy to see who was calling or what time it was.
I forgot to mention that I talked to Mover last night. He asked when he was going to see me and I asked when he was off. He said that he was off today and I told him we'd make plans to meet up after I got off work.
Okay, now back to the story at hand. So this morning when I woke up I looked at my Caller ID to see who had called. It was Mover....I still haven't even checked the voice mail and unless he was calling to tell me he had just been involved in a fatal car accident or his house was on fire, there was no justification for calling me at 3AM!
Now I've pretty much decided that not only will I not see him today but I think I'm done talking to him. Maybe I'm being harsh but I just thought that was very rude.
The next person with nerves is, drumroll please....my sister. How'd you guess? Yes, this morning she had the nerve to get mad at me because I didn't wake her up for work this morning. My mom usually wakes her up and she is out of town. You're a grown woman, wake yourself up!! I told her to just go ahead and get dressed and go late. She explained to me that calling in sick was better at her job than coming in late, I am so working at the wrong place. Then she went on to further say that she didn't have any clean clothes anyway, so she'd just take the day off. How is it that you knew you had to go to work and have no clean clothes?
I guess there are some situations and people that I am not meant to understand.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
NotSoWellbutrin
Within the last year or so my sister and cousin have been put on this popular medication. This isn't to poke fun or make light of people with any type of disorder. Moreso, it seems like they have both gotten a bit worse from taking the meds. My cousin, who is very extroverted and a bs starter has now also added agressiveness to her roster. Before the meds she wasn't like this at all.
My sis who was already the most negative person I know now seems to just not know when to fight her battles. It's like everything is a fight with her. She has to be confrontational and she has to get the last word. She even tried to get into a physical altercation with another relative while they were at work, mind you, they work for the government. The issue was nowhere near serious where it should have escalated to you causing a commotion at your job with your family in front of a bunch of strangers.
To make matters worse you're not supposed to consume alcoholic beverages while on this medication but my sister seems to think that's just because they don't want her to have a good time. Friday night, she was about to take the pill with a wine cooler before my cousin who is also on the pills told her that wasn't a wise idea.
It bothers me how people who take medicines for different disorders joke around about how they must be crazy because they're on a prescribed medication. You aren't THAT crazy, you are fully aware of what you're doing. She's also seeing a psychiatrist who I feels is one of the types who just wants to medicate patients rather than actually getting to the problem.
I try to brush off a lot that my sister does because I know that she has some issues going on but sometimes I want to smack her, like yesterday for example. I got a call from the same relative she tried to fight last month saying that my sister said I had an issue with her but that for some reason I won't confront her myself. Not only is this not true, but if it was, why would you go to someone and say something like that? Other than to look for some mess to get started.
I have just been trying to keep my distance lately before I end up reacting to a person that clearly has problems.
My sis who was already the most negative person I know now seems to just not know when to fight her battles. It's like everything is a fight with her. She has to be confrontational and she has to get the last word. She even tried to get into a physical altercation with another relative while they were at work, mind you, they work for the government. The issue was nowhere near serious where it should have escalated to you causing a commotion at your job with your family in front of a bunch of strangers.
To make matters worse you're not supposed to consume alcoholic beverages while on this medication but my sister seems to think that's just because they don't want her to have a good time. Friday night, she was about to take the pill with a wine cooler before my cousin who is also on the pills told her that wasn't a wise idea.
It bothers me how people who take medicines for different disorders joke around about how they must be crazy because they're on a prescribed medication. You aren't THAT crazy, you are fully aware of what you're doing. She's also seeing a psychiatrist who I feels is one of the types who just wants to medicate patients rather than actually getting to the problem.
I try to brush off a lot that my sister does because I know that she has some issues going on but sometimes I want to smack her, like yesterday for example. I got a call from the same relative she tried to fight last month saying that my sister said I had an issue with her but that for some reason I won't confront her myself. Not only is this not true, but if it was, why would you go to someone and say something like that? Other than to look for some mess to get started.
I have just been trying to keep my distance lately before I end up reacting to a person that clearly has problems.
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