Wednesday, May 18, 2011


I've been trying to distract myself from thinking lately. I know to some, that may sound silly, but with my recently plague of insomnia, light-thinking has been allowing me to have restful nights. While I'm awake, I do think about the job situation, because that, I really can't control. I applied for fourteen jobs today and have a meeting with a placement agency tomorrow.

I'm going camping with BeBe and the girls this weekend. I asked Toot to borrow some camping equipment. He told me that I could borrow whatever I needed and asked me to call off work to hang with him and get the items. Well that day came and I couldn't take off. That fool Toot had the nerve to be mad and when I asked him about still using some of his camping gear, he said no. The fact that he had the nerve to tell me no when I've driven out of my way, through a thunderstorm to bring him money that he needed to borrow, pissed me off.

I went to a comedy show Saturday evening. The headliner was Lavelle Crawford and the opening act was named Spike Jackson. Let me tell you all, between those two men, I laughed until I cried. The laughter I got that night was just what the doctor ordered. When I'm sad, often times, I watch or listen to something funny to lift my spirits.

Last night I had a dream about Teddy. I think that the dream was because I prayed for him before I went to bed. Despite the way things ended between him and me, I still want only the best for him. I actually woke myself up from a dream for once. The dream had just started and in it my phone rang and I reached for it and saw that it was Teddy calling. I remembered thinking, this must be a dream, he's too proud to call me and just like that, I woke myself up.

What other ramblings???? I'm not sure if I told you guys but my sister officially moved to Arizona. I'm so proud of her and I am glad that she has followed her dream. One of my brothers teased that I turned her into a traitor since she left our hometown, my thing is, if being a traitor means doing what your heart desires, I'll be a traitor every time.


Jameil said...

I'm glad you got a good laugh!! Distracting myself is always one of the best things I can do when I'm stressed out.

Trish said...

Yes!! I had to keep wiping my eyes with tissue. Laughter truly is a great medicine.

Anonymous said...

One thing I really hate is when people do things with conditions attached. Can I borrow your camping equipment, yes or no. It shouldn't have quality time stipulations.


How exciting for your sister to follow her dreams and move to AZ! When you visit, you should plan an entire West Coast tour.

Hint, hint.

GorgeousPuddin said...

I'm not sure who Toot is but that was mean!You have enough stressing you right now. I hope you are able to still camp and have a GREAT time!

I also hope something comes through on the job front for you right away!!

Dreams are weird...that's sweet that you prayed for him maybe he REALLY wants to call you