They Always Come Back

That's a phrase that my sister and I use in terms of men. They never seem to fully move on with their lives, at some point they always throw out a line to see if we'll bite. This has been an ongoing thing with me since I was a teenager. JT still calls to check up on me from time to time and we always wish each other a happy birthday and its been 12 years.

Its something about not letting people go from my life. Now I don't talk to Scott anymore but a couple other exes do still call to see how I'm doing from time to time. I have a point to all this, don't worry.

Toot and I have been back talking. Surprised? Probably not. I told you guys that I saw him last month and we've been talking still. I really tried to not deal with him but there is some kind of energy between us that makes his presence always wanted. I'm not crazy, I know that the situation we have is still very much present but its like, I really don't care at this point.

It's reckless, I know. My emotions are under control for the most part, even though at times, knowing that there's a possibility that we'll never get together sometimes would make me sad.

We are both very open about whats going on in our lives, so I told him about a guy that I've been talking to. He was jealous, it was a bit cute. The last guy that I met, he didn't seem to care about at all but that's probably because he knew I wasn't feeling the guy like that.

I can't be a hypocrite and blast on him for being a little mad that I met someone. I say that because I'm guilty of being that way in the past myself. I think a lot of us have been guilty of not being with someone but not wanting them to be with anyone else.

So jokingly yesterday he asked me if the new guy and I were married yet. I laughed and dismissed his silly question. He has been making even more of an effort to talk now and has done a couple of grand gestures. I asked him what has brought all this on and he said "this new guy you're talking to, I can't let him take you away from me."

The truth is though that the new guy I met, there is something special about him. We always find ourselves laughing and just enjoying each other. He seems to have all that I'm looking for in a potential partner and he has expressed the same interest in me. I know that I really like him because when he and I are on the phone and Toot calls, he gets first priority and I tell Toot that I'll call him when I'm done or if it's late, I don't click over at all, I just call him after I'm off.

There was a time when I'd get off the phone with my own mother to talk to him but things seem to be evolving. Now here is where I contradict myself...despite the fact that I have another interest, I let him talk me into taking a trip together next week. Right, crazy. I haven't told anyone about this and possibly its because I know that I'm wrong and really don't care to be lectured.

I did tell him that I still intend on talking to the new guy at night so he better deal with it. I know that at some point, I will have to stop him from trying to be apart of my life, but for now, that time hasn't come.

Dragon Lady

Today has been one hectic day. My computer here at work got the worm virus so my computer was running extra slow and these pop-up ads jumped on my screen every couple of minutes. It is budget time in my office and the wrong time for my computer to act up.

I told my boss, Dragon Lady, my issue and she had me request a loaner tower from our IT dept. You'd think, cool, she got another tower, now she can work on her projections. WRONG!!! The tower they brought me had E.xcel 2007 and my office is behind the times and still using 2003. So now I'm trying to find my other workbooks and it was just frustrating. My boss caught wind that I was trying to maneuver through 2007 and snapped that this was not the time for me to be learning new software. Yeah lady, I didn't ask them for 2007, so beat it.

Finally I called a friend who uses the 07 version and got the ball rolling. Prjoection season is when my boss and I talk the most and I dread every single minute of the experience. The project is due Wednesday and then we can go back to not speaking to each other.

On top of the work mess, I have a cold that won't quit. I thought it was gone but resurfaced this morning. I am going to buy everything on the shelf at the pharmacy tonight because I refuse to be sick for my trip to 80 degree weather this weekend.