Clarity

I did a two day fast this week. Not long for some people but for me, it was just enough. I feel like I have been in a vicious cycle lately, doing the same dumb things and wondering why I keep getting the same stupid results.

I've decided that after my lease is up that I am going to use a roommate locator so that I can pay off some bills and save. The townhouse I went to see a few weeks ago was wonderful and made me really yearn for home ownership. The current state of my financial situation will mean that I will never be able to save up enough for a down payment so I need to take the necessary steps. I am also going to start looking for a new job. My prayer is that any increase that I get will also go towards bills and savings. I was reading up on Vision Boards and I want to make one for myself, there are so many things I want, so I need to put them down and bring them into fruition.

The guy I had been dating kind of ticked me off. I asked him to do me a favor and he said he would but then went into asking me a ton of questions. It was Sunday when I asked him to do said favor and he has yet to mention it. When he wants or needs something, he never has to mention it more than once to me. I feel some kind of way about having to ask people who I am always there for to do something for me several times. I feel like if it was something he wanted, then he would have been more diligent about following up. I have made up my mind that if he doesn't mention it by Monday then I am done with him. It may seem petty but I am tired of wasting my time with people who don't treat me as I treat them. I was already thinking of cutting him off because we hadn't spoken in a week and he came contacting me. I had packed up a few things that he left at my place and put them in my front closet. He asked about his items when he came over. I went to the front to get them and he made a comment that I put his stuff by the door like I had done with Nbr's things. You're damned right, I don't have time for the bull.

I am ready to really start taking care of me because if I don't nobody else will. When I am cleared to start back working out by the doctor, I will. I am ready to get my life back on track.

School's Out

I am officially done with classes! I put blood, sweat and tears in this program and I am so glad it is over. As always, my group members were burning the midnight oil, waiting up until the final hour to submit our assignment. I actually sighed relief after the work was submitted.

I mentioned to a particular guy that I would be celebrating the end of this exhausting program this weekend and he said that he wanted to take me out. Friday night, we went out for Sushi and also played pool later on in the evening. It definitely felt nice to be treated extra special on an evening that was so important to me.

Last night some of my classmates met up for Happy Hour. I really enjoyed my time and got to see a guy I hadn't seen since my trip to China. We had a good time and you would never know it had been a year since we've seen each other. He took me to breakfast this morning but will be leaving town in the morning. If we lived in the same state, I could totally see us together...I haven't had a weekend go this well in months!

I don't think all of this will feel real until I receive my degree in the mail. There are so many things that I have been slacking on due to school, well I no longer have that excuse and I'm ready. First things first, I need to start looking for a new place ASAP!!

Thank God I made it and I will be impatiently tapping my foot until that degree arrives!!