Eleven Hours

This is how many hours I talked on the phone to the guy from Texas. I call him Toot as a nickname because he toots his own horn a bit, but its funny and not a conceited-type turn off. It started with him getting off work yesterday morning and calling me and we talked well into the afternoon when my battery died.

I can't remember talking to someone for so much time, especially since I've been grown. There is never a dull moment or a time when we're just holding the phone. This has been going on for about a month and I'm not bored yet.

It's funny because I didn't expect at all to meet someone online that I liked and looked forward to talking to on a regular. There are times that he passes up on going out if I decide to spend the night in just to "keep me company." He makes things comfortable by sending pics on a regular of not only him but other elements of his day. I'm not one of those people that has their pic all over the web or sends pics of herself to people but he actually has me sending him pics regularly too.

I can't wait to see him, we've been couting down since he bought my plane ticket. I originally had a ticket but my bosses declined my request which would have had me in Texas this past weekend. Since getting the ticket things haven't dwindled as far as our conversation. The pessimist in me has me thinking that things are going just too good. Now I'm not saying he's perfect, he has quite a few things that are flaws including the fact that he is separated and beginning a divorce. Toot is alot better than me at expressing his feelings, whereas for me, the past has me with this big wall up.

Am I being irrational? I don't know. Is he saying what he thinks I want to hear? He seems really sincere with things he says and is pretty forthcoming with information. I don't wanna be a fool and belive a fairytale. We complement each other so well, sometimes its scary. Thing is, not like he left his wife for me or anything like that, but I have been in a similar situation before. My radar hasn't went off yet, remember I told you all about how sometimes I get these warnings but I ignore them, so I'm not having any doubts at the moment, just thinking that I will take things a day at a time.

So aside from that, I am trying to not be nervous about meeting someone in person for the first time. Have any of you met someone from online? I think that initially it will be a little weird adjusting to actually not being on the phone but in person but nonetheless I am super excited.